I hope your friends won’t get the wrong idea that we are…you know…lesbo or something?

Like Angelina Jolie and her Japanese lesbo partner?

Hahahahaha..

i miss those days!
i miss waiting for you to “siap” every morning.
i miss staring at you while you’re tying up your red converse laces.
i miss having stupid nonsense conversation with you.
i miss walking back and forth to college & laugh at those stupid bitchy girls.
i miss gossiping about rafique & manje with you.
i miss the smell of your perfume and the way you frantically sprayed it all over your body.
but what i missed the most is..
you.wrapped in ONLY bath-towel.screaming “belom siaaaap!” everytime you saw me entering your room.
uuuu…sexy.

hahahaha!!!
btw, i cried reading through your comment here.
i totally heart you aliah.
i know it sounds fake cus we hardly spent time with each other,but somehow,within me,i know our friendship is more than that.

i lovelovelove you hun!

I’ve known you since we were in KPTM Bangi, the college your relatives have no idea they ever existed. We were so-called ’studying’ the same underrated course, as you said, Business Management, walked a few kilometres to class and we were cracking up to see a bunch of kampung girls trying so hard to fit in. I still remember there was this one girl, Baby is her nick name if I’m not mistaken; wore this one terrible pleated skirt and fishnet pantyhose underneath, begged me to bring her to Nouvo Club. And I also can recall this girl from Kelantan (but I can’t remember her name) whom has transformed from a sweet looking girl wearing ‘tudung cendawan’ into a ‘playgirl’ ???(that’s what she claimed she is back then!) From a tudung cendawan she changed to a little shorter scarf, then shorter, shorter then NONE. From long pants to 3/4 pants then knee length skirt to micro minis. From dating guys in the class to seniors, then to strangers she got to know from iRC. I’d laugh my ass off reminiscing about all these, thinking what makes them think that it’s important to fit in and undergo hilarious make overs.

Remember I used to like Rafique to death I even bought him guitar chords from Kinokuniya and put it on his Volvo 6 am in the morning anonymously? Haha. I can see you’re smiling now. And the days I had a fight with my mom I didn’t return home for a month even it’s only 20 kilos away. We rent a car and went to Mid Valley with Beda, Nil and Dayoo. And we would spend our nights having dinner either at college cafe or stalls outside with Rano, Omar and the rest of the guys. Sometimes with the 2 seniors I forgot their names. We didn’t really think or study hard during those days. We just had fun and if we didn’t know how to solve the account or Business Maths (I hate this subject!) we would seek for Rano’s help cause he seemed to be very meticulous. I think we both know why we had that kind of lifestyle back then. You were there cause you were forced to, while I was there halfheartedly, mainly because I didn’t want to feel left out cause all of my friends have gone to the local IPTAs. We were not there because we wanted to, because we eagerly want to pursue our education in that field. But I’m glad that I went to that college even if it was for only one semester mainly because I got to know you. We shared mutual, true friendship that I still think I couldn’t find anywhere, from anyone else.

But remember, after I left, I heard you’ve got good grades. Very impressive GPAs which proved to everyone that you can do it. You definitely can do it if you put your mind into it and stay focused. Maybe I didn’t tell you this earlier, but you were my inspiration. From zero to hero. And look at you now. The moment I heard you got accepted into USM, pursuing your degree in Mass Comm- the course you give your heart to, unconditionally. You can’t deny the fact that all your hardwork and efforts when you were in that infamous college paid off later, right?

So back to the topic you wrote, (I think I’ve crapped a lot already!) it all comes back to us. Yes, US. YOUR heart. YOUR mind. YOUR soul. If you keep your mind focused and always remember why you are here for, I’m sure you’ll achieve whatever yo strive for. Remind yourself not to drift apart from your roots. But don’t stress yourself so much with the assignments la..Your brain needs rest also.. Just don’t be like any other girl, please do not attempt or even think of being someone else just so you can fit in cause belive me, in the end you’ll get nothing. NADA. But I know you won’t right?

Whatever happens, I wish you all the best for your future undertakings. It’s good to see that you’re happy in what you’re doing. Eventhough I couldn’t further my studies due to financial probs (I can’t help blaming myself why am I not born in a wealthy family?) but I’m proud of what I’m doing now, you know, to work and support my family. Of course in the beginning I cried to see my housemates applied for degree and I was just staring in front of the monitor and blinked back my tears. But somehow I learn that things happen for a reason and I need to make this sacrifice and hope for success in the future. Right now I’m working my ass off for earnings every end of the month, doing something I’m not passionate about, something that has nothing to do with what I’ve studied earlier in the Uni but that’s life. I begin to learn that life is not fair and I have to live with it.

And to you Syefa. Eventhough we are thousand miles away and we didn’t share that kind of friendship like we used to have, always remember that I’ll be here, for you and you can always count on me. Love you loads! And oh, to your relatives, screw them! They are not the ones paying your school fees or feed you. I used to get the “Why didn’t you further your studies”? A LOT from my relatives and friends, even from the interviewer. I got so sick of it I would say, “Why? You wanna pay? Yayy!” and walked off. Just screw them. They won’t shut their fucking mouth but just screw them.

p/s: I have to stop here. My boss already gave me that aren’t-you-supposed-to-work look.Haha.

“I would rather entertain and hope that people learned something than educate people and hope they were entertained.” — Walt Disney

First of all,thanks for reading!!
I totally love you guys. (remind me to buy you guys ice-cream later.)

yeah! i agree li ying!
thought i was the only one who have to bear with this nonsense.
why cant our relatives leave us alone!
they are totally annoying. X(

rasfan, as usual, you’re totally a poetic person.
thanks for supporting me through thick & thin.

weee!!

Thanks for remninding us what we are here for. and i exactly agree with you.. relatives are annoying with their constant comparison between one another. I hate that!!! i get that too during CNY..
THere are many reasons to state why we are here but importantly is to know who we are and stick to our roots. some will but some will drift away..
Hoping for more thoughts coming in this blog!!! cheers! =)

tapi carilah matlamat kita di dalam setiap
tindak tanduk kita
ingatlah tanggung jawab kita
ingatlah tujuan kita berada di universiti
ingatlah, ingatlah

Di mana bumi dipijak
Di situ langit dijunjung

yang benar

rasfan abu kassim